nct plans foiled

well, i'm up at 2:30 in the morning coughing up a lung or three. it looks like whatever i have has spread into my lungs. it feels like i'm drowning. this, with my asthma is a bad combination. so, i'm going to have to very reluctantly back out of the nct trip. what a crappy summer i've had. i haven't been able to do shit. it started w/ the crappy addison race. then health issues caused me to miss two races i really wanted to do and now this. what shitty luck. i know everyone's gonna be having an AWESOME time up there but i just can't do it. a chest cold and 90 degree weather this weekend would just equal a miserable time for me. plus, i don't want to get anyone sick...especially dustin. whatever. if only i could get some zzzz's...