it's a waiting game
not much i can do right now but wait. i have a stupid "consultation" appointment on wednesday afternoon. i just want the scope and find out exactly what i need to deal with. i'm still hopeful that they'll do it friday, but it's unlikely. so, it probably means i'll have to wait another frickin' week before i find out if i have cancer or not. blah!
whatever it is, it's not getting any better. it seems to be getting worse but, of course, that could just be in my head. oh well, 2 more days and i'll know at least a little bit more.
i had a very good weekend to keep my mind off of things. i was too depressed to go into work on friday so i met up w/ some old friends for a ride out at pontiac. that was definitely fun! after the ride we had some post-ride beverages and i headed home to watch the pistons get blown out. oh well, at least i had plenty of jolly pumpkin to get me feeling good enough to sing karaoke in the basement *alone*. don't go and start feeling all embarrassed for me.
saturday, i decided to go ride instead of hang out at pontiac and watch people ride their bikes as i was definitely not racing. yeah, i kind of miss seeing all my racing buddies but it was too nice out not to go ride. i went with an old friend to brighton. we decided to just do the murray lake loop. it started out sunny but a couple of miles in, it got dark and windy and started raining. it was a light rain that just basically packed the sand and dust down. so, out for a second loop the same thing happened except it rained a bit harder and there was some thunder. we decided on a third lap and this time it was dry and sunny! that niner is soooo much fun! i'm really starting to get used to it and like it. i don't miss the fango at all.
after an afternoon of biking i headed way the fuck up north to metamora for a friend's bachelor party. it was good seeing the guys. i see my non-mountain biking buddies only a couple of times a year now. we don't have too much in common anymore...well, except for drinking!
now that the weekend's over and i'm back to work, it's hard to keep my mind off of stuff. it's kind of an emotional rollercoaster especially when i don't know anything right now. it's hard not to speculate but i do know that i'm ready to fight. if not for me, then for mason. he deserves to have his daddy around for a long time. it's funny because on friday night he asked me out of the blue if we'd be friends forever. that right there makes it all worth it.
whatever it is, it's not getting any better. it seems to be getting worse but, of course, that could just be in my head. oh well, 2 more days and i'll know at least a little bit more.
i had a very good weekend to keep my mind off of things. i was too depressed to go into work on friday so i met up w/ some old friends for a ride out at pontiac. that was definitely fun! after the ride we had some post-ride beverages and i headed home to watch the pistons get blown out. oh well, at least i had plenty of jolly pumpkin to get me feeling good enough to sing karaoke in the basement *alone*. don't go and start feeling all embarrassed for me.
saturday, i decided to go ride instead of hang out at pontiac and watch people ride their bikes as i was definitely not racing. yeah, i kind of miss seeing all my racing buddies but it was too nice out not to go ride. i went with an old friend to brighton. we decided to just do the murray lake loop. it started out sunny but a couple of miles in, it got dark and windy and started raining. it was a light rain that just basically packed the sand and dust down. so, out for a second loop the same thing happened except it rained a bit harder and there was some thunder. we decided on a third lap and this time it was dry and sunny! that niner is soooo much fun! i'm really starting to get used to it and like it. i don't miss the fango at all.
after an afternoon of biking i headed way the fuck up north to metamora for a friend's bachelor party. it was good seeing the guys. i see my non-mountain biking buddies only a couple of times a year now. we don't have too much in common anymore...well, except for drinking!
now that the weekend's over and i'm back to work, it's hard to keep my mind off of stuff. it's kind of an emotional rollercoaster especially when i don't know anything right now. it's hard not to speculate but i do know that i'm ready to fight. if not for me, then for mason. he deserves to have his daddy around for a long time. it's funny because on friday night he asked me out of the blue if we'd be friends forever. that right there makes it all worth it.
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